Last night I had a dream.....that dream include all bourgeois.....and my school building in which I spend 11 years of my school life.
The dream started with my appearance on the second floor of back arm of my school building. I am there with my form filled for admission in next semester of my B.Tech (this is silly because in school you can’t submit a form related to your collage).Then searching for a counter or something like that I ascended to the third floor where every class room is stuffed with students...huhh number of students has increased since I left. The situation was such that some of the students were sitting outside the class room face to face with their rows of chairs perpendicular to the door wall. Room by room I started searching for the form submission counter and suddenly came across a 4’ by 6’ room with 2 RD benches and 2 similar tables and guess who were sitting on these benches---nirbhay, ankit, vc, kp, sobsi, ravish, sajal and all. Nirbhay was busy writing something in his notebook.
Right from the beginning of my conscious I am feeling that I am a thief and that’s why I have to run preventing myself from an unknown fear. That fear prevents me from stop there and say warmest hi to them all---and I passed the room involved in my search again.
Hourrr...what happened? I don’t know but again I am on the 2 floor of my school building but this time with no particular reason. Rambling here and there I was again ascending to the third floor and found out that all of them were present at the end of stair railing and they all were smiling as they know about the thief.
Another property of my subconscious is that I always apologise for the matter that do not matters much. So wearing an expression of apology I waved and commingled with my dearest peers.
Presto...I still don’t know what happened but again I am in a new situation where all of us are standing on the platform between the second and third floor. My entire friend group starts descending to the second floor except nirbhay. I don’t know much about this particular movement but one thing is for sure that nirbhay was wearing the same “burmuda” he wore during lectures when his knee got hurt. Both of us start descending to second floor and in between I started being amazed---“I can’t believe we met---I am so happy man, really unbelievable”. Yes, that is stupid but I used to do that when I am having some sort of inferiority.
The final and not the least important part was when we all slowly heading towards a canteen on the second floor. The scene was as described below:-
After stepping on the floor of second floor we see that it was sort of a hall in which the stairs were touching the floor at the backmost edge and also touching right wall. There is a large crowd—I will not say that the crowd was huge but it was collection of groups of 7-15 people and at least 10 groups were present. There was a canteen has its counter open through the right wall and this window is open at the right forward corner. There was a lobby about 5’ in width and running perpendicular to the stairs and outside the hall there is also a canteen counter in the lobby touching the left-back corner of the hall. On the left wall there is also a counter open just opposite the right wall counter. A fan was blowing a thunder---with such speed wind can break a wall but a woman is standing in front of it with no effect.
And then a rickshaw come slowly from downstairs and start moving on the same floor---he he ---“I know that there were no rickshaws when we were here—I can’t believe that things have changed so much---everything is different”.
What exactly do it means? This question is haunting me right from the movement when I woke up. I am thinking that things accruing in dreams are those embedded in subconscious mind. So there are two things embedded---one is my gang, my group...bourgeois----and second thing is my school building....the building I still remember every corner of....where I spend 11 years of my school life and still remember every corner after 5 years.
I think that most important things is that I have started seeing you guys in my dreams....... I am missing you the most.
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